I got my new camera today! It’s so nice! I can’t wait to start taking pictures again!!!!
And why do we fall? So we can learn to pick ourselves up.
google earth project
kickingass-at-recovery-deactiva asked: I could relate sooooo much to your post! Wow. I guess maybe... Take it one day at a time starting tomorrow? We can always start exercising and throw the diet mentally, it's just hard but it's possible.
I decided that I’m just gonna take up some fun hobbies that are physical and try to focus on not emotionally eating. As much as I hate my body right now I’ve come to realize that hating it has only made my issues worse and the number on the scale get higher. I’m never gonna be a gym rat, or a health food nut. So trying to make those lifestyle changes has just put me in a state of misery wondering if I had what it was gonna take to make it work, and I don’t cuz ultimately that’s not what I want. I want to be happy and healthy and comfortable in my own skin. I want to have the physical ability to run and jump and climb without feeling like I’m gonna die, I want to find clothes that I like, that fit. But I also want to be able to go out with my friends and eat pizza and burgers and friggin pasta without worrying.
I don’t care about my BMI or my exact weight or clothing size, but I do care about my health and ruining my mental health so that I can (attempt) to shrink to a healthy physical standard is counter productive and I wont do it anymore.
…which reminds me of the pounds I haven’t lost and more importantly how miserable I am about it. I’m definitely damaged. I’ve been reading a lot about body acceptance, self esteem and the like and it’s brought up some statistics, for example I read that most girls by age 10 have already tried to lose weight.
I was watching tv with Scott and they mentioned an overweight man who was 5’5” and weighed 260lbs the characters on tv commented that he was over weight, then Scott replied with “that’s a friggin’ blob”
… thanks hubby cuz your wife, who’s sitting next to you is 5’5” and currently 280…
feelin’ the self esteem tonight!
I saw someone who has 2 kids, one a very cute 2 year old girl and the other and equally adorable 5 year old boy. She was handing out cookies and gave 2 cookies to each kid (there was a large group) except for her 2 year old girl, she got one cookie and extra carrots. I don’t know her motives, but it made me sad
rough draft mock up for my portfolio site… what do you guys think? I’d love a critique
hey guys I’m reblogging myself here, but I have more followers on this blog and I’d love some feed back!
I have no idea where this is from, but her fucking face and then he’s just eating that like a fucking chicken drum holy shit oh my fucking god hahahhah
this is perfect! I would have so much respect if Scott did this to me. Especially if he was also mowing down on it.
what if you were in bed tonight and you were really lonely and sad and you were lying with your arm hanging out over the edge of the bed into the darkness and just as you were going to sleep, the darkness reached out and held your hand
i made a thing
This is beautiful.
My demons always take good care of me <3